What a great week....

Other than the fact that I miss Sean like crazy, this has been a great week! I have been writing everything down that I have been eating AND logging it on my health tracker at Prevention.com. It must be working. I am down to 209.4!!!! Last I weighed I was 212.4...that's 3 pounds gone!!! Yippee! I didn't even work out this week either....I decided I was going to ease into the diet part and the exercising will follow.

April 3 will be my last day at work here in TN, then the big move to Baltimore. It's nice to have a date set, so that part is settled, now the house part, job part, etc. I know God will provide and will lead me to the right job, it is just hard waiting and not knowing. Sean is going to look at some houses this weekend and hopes to put a deposit down on one. We have decided to seriously downsize....as in going from 3400sf, to maybe 1500sf if we are lucky. :) It will be an adjustment, but I grew up in a house that size with 2 sisters and survived. :) It's also a sacrifice we feel we must make to take pressure off of us financially. If we can get the townhouse that Sean is looking at today, it will be in the best school district in Baltimore County, but only 6 miles from Sean's office so he can ride bike to work and we won't have to buy a second car. Praise the Lord!! Things are looking up...now if we could just get the house sold! :)

Failure is a good thing.... :)

I started reading Bob Harper's (The Biggest Loser trainer) book "Are you Ready!" this week. I am trying to put into practice some of the things he mentions. I need to find something about myself that I DO like and focus on that. Learning to love ourselves and accept ourselves as we are is the first step in all this weight loss mind game. Because, that is really what it is....a mind game. Our mind is an amazing thing but it can hinder us when it comes to doing things we want. If we doubt ourselves, put ourselves down, etc., our mind remembers and doesn't allow us to accomplish what we set out to do.

In a nutshell, we have to reprogram our brains to be able to let the weight come off. Stop setting ourselves up for failure, which is what we are ultimately afraid of anyway. Who really wants to fail at anything?! But, if we don't allow ourselves to take risks in ANY area of our lives, we will never have the chance to succeed! Today is the day that I allow myself to take risks, to not be afraid of failure (because it is in allowing myself to fail that I succeed!) in all areas of my life, not just with my weight! I will program myself to push forward toward my goals, even if there are setbacks along the way...I will dust myself off when I fall, and I will get back up and get right back at it! I will be a much stronger person because of my failures. I would much rather try and fail, then to have never tried at all!

Here's to my success! :)

It's a good day....

I am back and I am kicking butt this week! :) Yay! I am still working out on the elliptical, but have started a routine that I found in this months Prevention Magazine. It is a 7-day/week schedule, which may be hard, but if I can get at least 5 or 6 days in, I'll be doing good. :) Monday, Wednesday and Friday I add a weight circuit that consists of 5 different exercises that KICK MY BUTT!!! Oh man, I had such a hard time walking up the stairs on Tuesday...it was pretty funny. Then I had to do it all over again on Wednesday....it wore me out, but it felt so good. And, I'm not as sore today as I was on Tuesday....guess it might be working. I found muscles that I didn't even know that I had!

My diet has been going pretty well this week also. Maybe I am finally settling into a routine, and getting used to the fact that Sean is not here. Don't get me wrong....I am still missing him like crazy, but I am making it. He comes home for the weekend tomorrow and I am SO excited. Maybe the NEXT time he comes home (in a couple weeks) there will be more noticeable results. I am going to continue to work hard and NO MORE EXCUSES!!

This is so depressing....

This past week has been very hard for me. Sean has moved to Baltimore to start his new job and I am at home with the kids, still working. On top of that, the kids had off school almost all week due to bad weather. The stress is piling up on me (which is hard because I consider myself someone who doesn't GET stressed!)....working, making sure my kids get to school on time, trying to keep the house tidy for showings, and then having to work out and eat right on top of all that.

I watched the Biggest Loser last night and something Gillian and Bob said hit home. I need to STOP MAKING EXCUSES!! There are plenty of women out there with tougher lives than mine, and they still find time to eat right and work out hard. I need to change my mindset on a lot of things, and I need to start now! I want to look so good when Sean comes home!! If that's not motivation, I'm not sure what is! I guess I am becoming complacent with the fact that Sean loves me anyway, but the thing is, I know he would love me just as much or more if I was thin. Mostly, because I would be a lot happy with myself and in my own skin.

Pray that I can take control of my life and my weight loss!! Thanks for reading.